Okay, tonight I was thinking about how to organize my blog. I had this idea, to write prompts that would encourage me, and maybe others to write. Although, for now, it will have to be people, that just happen by my blog, in the great, open space of the internet.
I haven’t advertised it very much. That’s not the truth. I haven’t advertised it at all. Why you ask (some of you aren’t asking, because you see all the mistakes that I am making as I write). For those of you, that are asking why, the number one reason, is because I am just beginning. I understand that some may enjoy the reading, of writing, that is filled with mistakes (I don’t know who those people might be)
I could write, a whole kaleidoscope of reasons about why, I am not spreading the word, about my blog. I did in the first draft, as you can see they didn’t make the cut.
Truthfully, there is only one reason that I have, that covers all the others. Fear. There it is, right in the open, for the whole world to see (those two people that have read my blog). It’s the big, pink elephant in the middle of the room. Hence, the reason, I want to write this blog, and continue to write every day. It is also the reason, I want to run and hide (where is a rock when you need it).
So, I have decided that I need to make a declaration of sorts, in order to settle it, in my mind. So here it is:
I, Silverstein Potter (my fictitious self), will strive to write creatively on this blog every day for 365 days. I will determine to conquer fear-All Fear, which seeks to see me give up. I will do my best to be myself and be sincere. I will not, by the grace of God, let those fears rule me.
It sounds a little dramatic, I know, but maybe it takes a little pomp-and-circumstance to drive the point home.
As I read back over this, all kind of questions and doubts run through my mind. Is it a little dramatic? Yes. Is it silly? Yes. Is it truthful? Yes. Does others feel the same way I do? Certainly.
I am not the first one to have doubts and fears. I won’t be the last. I can overcome them and that is what I hope to do this year.